Need for CHANGE!

What is my calling? 

I've been struggling with the fact that I've done nothing amazing, been successful or made any big contributions to the human race. I try to be a good person, but how can I be a better me than I was yesterday? Everyday somebody else in some place else is creating, organizing or building something great. I've been complacent far too long and believe it is time to rally for my future.

Motivation: how do I get it? Where can I find it?
Passion: I have misplaced mine, can I replace it?
Risk: Afraid to leap, what if I fall?

The START by Jon Acuff

So I'm reading this book by Jon Acuff "START" subtitles "PUNCH FEAR IN THE FACE" "ESCAPE AVERAGE" and "DO WORK THAT MATTERS"

He discusses in this book that we need to find our inner awesome, do what brings you joy. Well that's some great advice, however what if at the time you have absolutely no idea what that is? I can tell you on a day to day basis its very rare when I think hmm yes this makes me happy or I am enjoying this. He mentions in the book, your awesome is probably something you're unaware of something you do so often that you don't consider it awesome but part of what you do.

HOW DO YOU FIGURE OUT YOUR AWESOME? HOW DO I FIND MY JOY?

Not to be a complete downer but I need a little direction, a hint , a clue or a giant neon sign saying hey "you're good at this". Woo hoo I'm good at lying (great) not huge lies but just little white lies.

HOW DO YOU KNOW WHEN YOU'RE AT PEACE? HELP ME FIND MY AWESOME!